‘You don’t have to keep coming here all the time just to ask silly questions. If a group has decided to take you on as a teacher, why not use that opportunity to turn yourself into a teacher?
‘Do what I always did.
‘Try to feel good about yourself even when you feel like the least worthy of creatures. Reject all those negative thoughts and let the Mother take possession of your body and soul; surrender yourself to dance or to silence or to ordinary, everyday activities – like taking your son to school, preparing supper, making sure the house is tidy. Everything is worship if your mind is focused on the present moment.
‘Don’t try to convince anyone of anything. When you don’t know something, ask or go away and find out. But when you do act, be like the silent, flowing river and open yourself to a greater energy. Believe – that’s what I said at our first meeting – simply believe that you can.
‘At first, you’ll be confused and insecure. Then you’ll start to believe that everyone thinks they’re being conned. It’s not true. You have the knowledge, it’s simply a matter of being aware. All the minds on the planet are so easily cast down – they fear illness, invasion, attack, death. Try to restore their lost joy to them.
‘Re-programme yourself every minute of each day with thoughts that make you grow. When you’re feeling irritated or confused, try to laugh at yourself. Laugh out loud at this woman tormented by doubts and anxieties, convinced that her problems are the most important thing in the world. Laugh at the sheer absurdity of the situation, at the fact that despite being a manifestation of the Mother, you still believe God is a man who lays down the rules. Most of our problems stem from just that – from following rules.
‘Concentrate. ‘If you can find nothing on which to focus your mind, concentrate on your breathing. The Mother’s river of light is flowing in through your nose. Listen to your heart beating, follow the thoughts you can’t control, control your desire to get up at once and to do something “useful”. Sit for a few minutes each day, doing nothing, getting as much as you can out of that time.
‘When you’re washing up, pray. Be thankful that there are plates to be washed; that means there was food, that you fed someone, that you’ve lavished care on one or more people, that you cooked and laid the table. Imagine the millions of people at this moment who have absolutely nothing to wash up and no one for whom to lay the table.
‘There are women who say: “I’m not going to do the washing up, let the men do it.” Fine, let the men do it if they want to, but that has nothing to do with equality. There’s nothing wrong with doing simple things, although if I were to publish an article tomorrow saying everything I think, I’d be accused of working against the feminist cause. Nonsense! As if washing up or wearing a bra or having someone open or close a door could be humiliating to me as a woman. The fact is, I love it when a man opens the door for me. According to etiquette this means: “She needs me to do this because she’s fragile”, but in my soul is written: “I’m being treated like a goddess. I’m a queen.” I’m not here to work for the feminist cause, because both men and women are a manifestation of the Mother, the Divine Unity. No one can be greater than that.
‘I’d love to see you giving classes on what you’re learning. That’s the main aim of life – revelation! You make yourself into a channel; you listen to yourself and are surprised at how capable you are. Remember your job at the bank? Perhaps you never properly understood that what happened there was a result of the energy flowing out your body, your eyes, your hands.
‘You’ll say it was the dance. ‘The dance was simply a ritual. What is a ritual? It means transforming something monotonous into something different, rhythmic, capable of channeling the Unity. That’s why I say again: be different even when you’re washing up. Move your hands so that they never repeat the same gesture twice, even though they maintain the rhythm.
‘If you find it helpful, try to visualise images – flowers, birds, trees in a forest. Don’t imagine single objects, like the candle you focused on when you came here for the first time. Try to think of something collective. And do you know what you’ll find? That you didn’t choose your thought.
‘I’ll give you an example: imagine a flock of birds flying. How many birds did you see? Eleven, nineteen, five? You have a vague idea, but you don’t know the exact number. So where did that thought come from? Someone put it there. Someone who knows the exact number of birds, trees, stones, flowers. Someone who, in that fraction of a second, took charge of you and showed you Her power.
You are what you believe yourself to be. ‘Don’t be like those people who believe in “positive thinking” and tell themselves that they’re loved and strong and capable. You don’t need to do that, because you know it already. And when you doubt it – which happens, I think, quite often at this stage of evolution – do as I suggested. Instead of trying to prove that you’re better than you think, just laugh. Laugh at your worries and insecurities.
View your anxieties with humour. It will be difficult at first, but you’ll gradually get used to it.
‘Now go back and meet all those people who think you know everything. Convince yourself that they’re right, because we all know everything: it’s merely a question of believing.
‘As I said to you in Bucharest, the very first time we met, groups are very important because they force us to progress. If you’re alone, all you can do is laugh at yourself, but if you’re with others, you’ll laugh and then immediately act. Groups challenge us. Groups allow us to choose our affinities. Groups create a collective energy, and ecstasy comes more easily because everyone infects everyone else.
‘Groups can also destroy us of course, but that’s part of life and the human condition – living with other people. And anyone who’s failed to develop an instinct for survival has understood nothing of what the Mother is saying.
‘You’re lucky. A group has just asked you to teach them something, and that will make you a teacher.’
-Deidre O’Neill, known as Edda
The Witch of Portobello