Begin Today

Behold, there’s life
Full of wonders
Filled with surprise
You’ve got this one chance
Begin now! Make no regrets.

Now the sky’s asking you
Fly with the clouds
Sing with the birds
Color it with distinct hues
Begin now! Wash away your blues.

Do you feel the warm breeze?
The air’s breathing with you
Go where you’re headed
Feel the cool wind
Begin now! No one’s stopping you.

See the world so bright
There’s new hope waiting for you
All dreams are possible
Follow your heart
Begin now! Dream anew.

All beginnings take courage
There’s no easy route than taking step
Take your heart, follow where it leads you
Fear has no room here
Begin now! Bravery starts with you!

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Isang Araw, Tatlong Karatula

UMAGA

Patingin-tingin
sa dumaraan
Tingin sa ibaba
mga sapatos na kumikinang
Tingin sa gitna
kotseng magagara
Tingin sa taas
walang nakikitang pag-asa

Umaga na naman
saan hahagilap ng pang-laman
Sa sikmurang gutom
at uhaw, kailan hihilom
Ang sakit ng anak
na nakaratay
Sa tabi ng daan
umaasang maabunan

Nang kaunting tulong
mula sa nagdaraan
Paroo’t parito
mapansin sana ninyo
Duming hindi lamang
nakamantsa sa suot
Sa lipunan akala
sa ami’y salot

Ale! mama!
Wala ba kayong pakiramdam?
Mata’y ‘wag ipikit
puso sa ami’y ilapit
Palad abutin
isa lamang dalangin —
Barya lang po, pangkain,”
karatulang pinasulat pa namin.

Patingin-tingin
sa dumaraan
Umaga na naman
saan kukuha ng pang-laman
Kaunting tulong sana
sa nagdaraan
Ale! Mama!
Wala ba kayong pakiramdam?

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GABI

Madilim ang paligid
masukal ang daan
Hahagilap ng pagkain
sa nakakalat na basurahan
Kapatid ko’y may sakit
gamot kailangan
Si ina’y lumuluha
pighati’y hanggang kailan

May nakahimlay
sa gilid ng kalsada
Sakto walang kaagaw
bibilisan ko ang pagkuha
Mga basurang tinapon
dyaryo, bote, garapa
Umaasang kahit papano’y
may pagkaing tira-tira

Pagtingin sa daan
natakot sa nakita
Dalawang kalalakihan
bigla akong inambahan
Suntok dito, tadyak doon
kalakal ko’y tuluyan nang natapon
Sigaw nila’y “krimen mo’y iyo nang aminin,
     ‘wag mo kaming galitin!

Kulay pula na ang kalsada
sabay nang pagpikit ng aking mata
Hindi akalain maririnig
pagputok ng tatlong bala
Iniwan sa kamay ko’y isang baril,
isang pakete ng droga sa bulsa
Kasabay ang pagpatong ng isang karatula
Pusher ako! ‘Wag tularan!

Madilim ang paligid
masukal ang daan
May nakahimlay
sa gilid ng kalsada
Pagtingin sa daan
natakot sa nakita
Kulay pula na ang kalsada
Sabay nang pagpikit ng aking mata.

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HAPON

Tirik ang araw
mainit ang kalsada
Mabigat ang mga paa
palakad sa eskinita
May mga naka-payong
iba’y nakasakay na
Mga ulo’y nakayuko
nagdarasal, nagdurusa.

May kahong puti
dahan-dahang pinaparada
Kasabay ng mga pangarap
na tuluyan nang nabura
May isang babae
yakap isang larawan
Nakaitim, humahagulgol
naupos na pag-asa

“Hustisya!” sigaw
ng kanilang karatula
Kasama ang mga grupong
taliwas sa droga
Sa amin ngayon
atensyon ng media
Bakit hindi kami napansin
noong may buhay pa.

Kasabay nang paghagis ng rosas,
paglipad ng lobo at pagtabon ng lupa
Kinabukasa’y hindi
ko na pala makikita
Unti-unti binalot
na nang kadiliman
Tulad ng puso ni inay
nang inihatid ako sa aking huling hantungan.

Tirik ang araw
mainit ang kalsada
May kahong puti
dahan-dahang pinaparada
Hustisya!” sigaw
ng kanilang karatula
Kasabay nang paghagis ng rosas,
paglipad ng lobo at pagtabon ng lupa.

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***Ito ay opisyal na lahok sa Saranggola Blog Awards 9 para sa kategoryang Pagsulat ng Tula:
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Missing you

I miss you —
Three words you never knew
How hard I fell for you
But you never fall for me, too.

I miss you —
Like how the trees missed its leaves during fall
Like how the rainbow failed to appear
After the rain poured.

I miss you —
Like the lacking pages
of my unfinished book
Like the tattoo of your name in my wrist
you didn’t care to look.

This is how I miss you.
It’s as if everything around me is you.
Yet I always left wondering
Did you ever miss me too?

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A Letter for You

Dear You,
It has been a year or two
Since I wrote about you
it’s as if the words lost all of its hue
Like a love that I once knew.

Dear You,
I’m still figuring out why
When you left, days killed me as it passed by,
How easily love can die
And what’s left were your painful lies.

Dear You,
Everything around me reminds me of you
And the spaces between my fingers still search for you.
And when it still chills me When the wind blew
Knowing there are no arms that will wrap me like you used to.

Dear You,
Moving on is never easy
But holding on to you is not an option for me.
We build a love that is amazing to see
But in the end, we’re still not meant to be.

Dear You,
This is the last poem I will write about you.
The hardest part of it all is when you left without a clue.
You should have find courage to say goodbye but you never really do.
So this is a farewell to a love that is not true.

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Oblivion

I saw you in my dreams last night.
You stare at me like I’m a beautiful sight.
But I looked away like I’m in a flight
Yet you held your gaze like you’re hugging me so tight.

So tell me, how can I forget you?
When couples walked hand in hand, I saw you.
When love songs played on radio, I hear you.
When random people passed by, I smell you.
When my blanket covered me in a cold night, I feel you.
When I sip my coffee first thing in the morning, I taste you.

How can I forget you?
When you are the period —
an end to my run-on sentence
When you became a verb — a past tense.

Can I forget you?
Definitely yes. I have to.
Because what’s worse than forgetting
is all about remembering.

To remember —
that once upon a time
On the 31st of October,
When the vicinity is full of lovers
You asked me if I can be yours forever.
And the next day, I knew, what we have is over.

And what I need to remember —
Is that courage is finishing something
that has not yet started.
That letting you go
is better than holding on will do.

So this is how I forget you —
To remember that never did I ever love you.

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Lost

I’ve been looking for you —
in the crowds of people passing
in the first sip of my coffee in the morning
in the flip of newspaper pages I was reading.

I came out looking for you —
in my favorite lunch meal I was eating
Just when I close my eyes and start napping
In the tons of paper that needs editing.

I still look for you —
in the road of rushing cars
in the flash of busy city lights
in the twinkling stars saying good night.

See, I’ve been looking for you —
In every step of the way
but the hard part is teaching my heart to stop looking.
But i need to…
Because in the process of believing you love me too,
I lost myself completely, too.

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Prelude

There is something beautiful
in every story’s beginning
in throbbing heart
in love at first sight
in other’s once upon a time.

And one day, he came along the way
And I knew our story had begun from then
With me, fixing his heart
And him, mending my scar
Because he told me, “I am broken.”
But never did he thought that I, too, was broken.

There is something beautiful
in every story’s beginning
Like there is beauty
in fixing someone that is broken.
Little by little.
Bit by bit.
We need to put back the pieces together.
Who knows, broken beginnings
might end with beautiful endings.

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Tatlong Yugto

ANGELINA
(Pag-ibig)

Sa buhay may iba’t ibang kuwento
Minsan may nagmamahal sayo, pero iba naman ang iyong gusto.
Mayroon ding iba na umasa, nasaktan at nabigo
Pero sa huli, may kuwento pa ring tulad nito…

Naalala mo pa ba?
Ika-12 ng Agosto, ako’y iyong niyaya
Bukas alas-diyes ng umaga,
Sa may parke, tayo sana’y magkita.

Suot isang simpleng bestida
Bitbit ko’y backpack at naka-rubbershoes pa.
Hindi ko naman alintana,
May naghihintay pala sa aking sorpresa.

Nang mamataan iyong mga barkada
Agad akong nakipag-usap sa kanila.
Habang ika’y nasa likod ko at naghahanda,
Hawak tatlong rosas, kasabay ay tugtog ng gitara.

Dahan-dahang lumapit sa akin,
Iniabot mga bulaklak sabay handog ng isang awitin.
Sabay tinanong mo sa akin:
Pwede ka bang maging akin?

Naramdaman ko’y halong pagkabigla at pagkalito,
Sa dami nang nakatingin na tao,
Samantalang ika’y nasasabik sa tugon ko,
Ngunit sagot ko’y “pasensya, hindi kita gusto.”

Lumakad palayo
Iniwan kang nakatayo
Umuwi akong lulugo-lugo
Tinatanong ang sarili kung tama ba ang naging desisyon ko.

Isang linggo ang lumipas
‘Ni paramdam hindi ka nagpamalas.
Ngunit bakit ganito akong nadarama
Puso ko’y tila nalumbay nang hindi ka nakikita.

Hanggang dumating panibagong umaga,
At sa paglabas ng bahay ika’y nakita,
Hawak mo’y tatlong rosas na pula
Lumapit sa akin sabay sabing, “hindi ako susuko hangga’t mapa-oo kita!

Mula noo’y patuloy na sinuyo,
Araw-araw pinasaya mo.
Pinaramdam ang dalisay mong motibo,
Turing mo sa aki’y iyong mundo.

Namasyal kung saan-saan
Nag-usap ng masinsinan
Tumawa, kumain, nag-asaran
Doon kita nakilala nang lubusan.

At isang beses habang pinanunuod natin ang mga tala,
Tumingin ako sayo nang may paghanga
Sambit ko’y “hoy! Mahal na kita!
Tumalon ka sa tuwa, sabay sabing, “pag-ibig ko’y ikaw ang dulo’t simula.”

Mula noo’y patuloy mo akong pinaligaya
Madalas mong hawakan kamay ko sa kalsada.
Kinakantahan mo rin ako sa tuwina,
Ligtas ka sa piling ko,” ang sabi mo pa.

At sa tuwing lumalabas, pinapakain mo ako ng marami
‘Pag mahangin, buhok ko pa’y iyong hinahawi.
Bilin mo’y “mag-iingat ka sana palagi
At sa noo ko’y pabaon mong halik nananatili.

“Salamat sa Diyos ika’y binigay
Lumigaya ang puso kong dati’y malumbay
Nilagyan mo ng liwanag buhay kong walang kulay,
Kaya’t asahan mong mamahalin kita ng tunay,”
Iyan ang pangako mong panghabang-buhay.

Sa reyalidad, walang pag-ibig na perpekto
Sasaya at minsa’y masasaktan iyong puso
Ngunit kung pag-ibig dakila at totoo
Kailan ma’y walang lugar ang salitang pagsuko.

Ang pag-ibig sadyang makulay at mahiwaga
Hinihintay at pinagpupursigihan kung iyo nang nakuha.
Iniibig nya ako at iniibig ko sya,
Ngalan ko’y Angelina at ito ang kuwento naming dalawa.
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PAOLO
(Pananampalataya)

Nagising akong naghahabol ng hininga.
Tagaktak ang pawis at kakaba-kaba.
‘Pag tingin sa orasa’y alas-dos y medya
Masamang panaginip, doo’y nakita kita.

At doon ko naalala away natin kagabi
Nakatulog akong kahit “mahal kita” ‘di ko nasabi.
Kaya’t mabilis kong kinuha cell phone kong katabi,
At nakita mensahe at tawag mong napakadami.

Isa-isang binasa mensahe mong humihingi ng tawad,
At paulit-ulit mong sinasabing “ang mahalin ka, ang tangi ko lang hangad.
At habang binabasa iba mo pang mensaheng padala,
Nagulat ako ng may tumawag bigla.

Hanggang…

Nagmamadaling kinuha bag at kumaripas ng takbo
Pumara ng taxi doon sa may kanto.
Manong, Mary Johnston Hospital sa may Tondo.”
Napatungo at nasambit, “Diyos ko, iligtas Mo ang taong mahal ko.”

Pagdating sa ospital, ika’y natagpuan,
Walang malay at katawa’y sugatan
Pisngi mo’y hinalikan at kamay mo’y agad kong hinawakan
At bulong ko sayo’y, “pakiusap, ‘wag mo akong iiwan.”

Labag man sa loob kong ika’y bitiwan,
Ngunit gamutin ka ng doktor ay kinakailangan.
At habang naghihintay sa malungkot na pagamutan,
Paulit-ulit kong panalangin iyong kaligtasan.

“O, Panginoon, Sayo ako sumasamo,
Gabayan mo ang daang tinatahak ng mahal ko.
Ipakita sa kanya ang liwanag at pag-ibig ng Iyong puso,
Upang makabalik syang ligtas at patuloy na nananalig Sayo.”

“Alam kong Ikaw ang daan, katotohanan at buhay,
At sa mga oras na ito’y Sayo ko sya inaalay,
Malagpasan nya ang pagsubok na ito sa tulong ng Iyong gabay,
Hilumin ang sakit at sugat na kanya ngayong tinataglay.”

At habang ako’y nasa kalagitnaan ng panalangin,
Lumabas ang doktor at lumapit sa akin
Tapos na ang operasyong sa kanya’y isinailalim,
Ngunit ‘di ko batid kung kailan sya gigising.”

Mabigat ang pusong ika’y pinutahanan
Humingi ng tawad sa aking mga pagkukulang.
Diyos ko, tulungan mo po akong maunawaan,
Bakit kailangang sya pa ang masaktan at mahirapan.”

Mahirap man tanggapin iyong sinapit
Ngunit ‘di ako titigil at sa Diyos kakapit.
Patuloy kitang inalagaan upang maibsan ang sakit
Maniniwalang isang araw yakap at halik mo’y muling makakamit.

Hindi kayang makita ng iyong pamilya ang paghihirap mo,
Kaya’t pinagdesisyunan nilang tanggalin na ang makinang bumubuhay sayo.
At sa pagkakataong iyon, sa harap nila, nanindigan ako —
Pagsubok lamang po ito, kung kayo bumibitaw na, ako ‘di ko po sya isusuko.”

Lumipas nga ang mga araw at buwan
Pinatawad ko na ang nakagawa sayo ng kasalanan.
Dahil alam kong kung ika’y gising ay ako’y pagpapaliwanagan,
Ang turo ng panginoo’y magpatawad upang makamtan kapayaan ng puso at isipan.

Ika-15 ng Oktubre, eksaktong dalawang araw at isang buwan
Habang ako’y nakatalikod at nag-aayos ng iyong kagamitan,
Bigla na lamang may humaplos sa aking likuran,
‘Pag harap ko’y maganda mong ngiti ang natunghayan.

O Diyos ko, maraming salamat po!
Himala ngang maituturing ito!
At kailanma’y ‘di ako titigil magpuri Sa’yo,
Salamat ibinalik mo ang taong mahal ko!

Sa aking kasiyahan, agad kitang hinagkan
Paulit-ulit na nagpasalamat sa Diyos na makapangyarihan
Sa tainga ko, labi mo’y nilapit at ako’y binulungan,
Si Lord nakulitan sayo, ngunit ang pagbabalik ko’y pag-ibig at pananalig mo ang dahilan.

Pag-ibig ng Panginoo’y dalisay at totoo,
Patuloy na manalig at sa buhay huwag susuko.
Maging matatag at maniwalang may milagro.
Ako si Paolo at ito ang aking kuwento.
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PAOLINA
(Pag-asa)

Habang hawak nya iyong kamay
Tumingala kayo sa langit, nagpasalamat at nangarap ng sabay
Salamat Diyos, sya’y binigyan ng panibagong buhay,
Kaya’t biyayang ito’y amin ngayong magiging gabay.

Dahan-dahang kinapkap kayang pantalon,
Lumuhod sya sayo at hinarap isang kahon.
Tanong nya’y “pwede ka bang makasama sa matagal na panahon?
Naluluhang sagot mo’y “Oo, ang makasama ka habang buha’y pangarap ko pa noon.”

Isang taon matapos ang iyong aksidente
Buhay mo ngayo’y sa kanya na idedepende
Panibagong simula sa ika-15 ng Oktubre
Pag-asang hatid na sabay nyong ididiskubre.

At habang ikaw ngayo’y naglalakad na naka-trahe de boda,
Walang pagsidlan papuri mo sa Kanya.
Nakangiting tinahak sa harapan iyong tadhana
Tinanggap mong may galak ang isang panibagong simula.

Abot-langit kanyang ngiti.
Hinawakan nya iyong kamay at sayo’y sinabi,
Sa hirap at ginhawa, mahal ko, pag-ibig nati’y magwawagi.
Itinaas iyong belo at hinalikan ka sa labi.

Ang buhay ay sadyang puno ng misteryo
Kalakip nito’y mga pagsubok, pagtanggap at muling pagkatuto
Ngunit kung tayo lamang ay patuloy na magiging positibo
Umasang kinabukasa’y may magandang araw na panibago.

At sa pangalawang pagkakataon sa ospital ika’y dinala,
Ngunit hindi na takot at pangamba inyong nadarama.
Hawak kamay nyong sinalubong isang bagong pag-asa
Pag-iyak ko’y sya nyong naging galak at tuwa.

Ako po pala si Paolina.
Tatay ko’y si Paolo; nanay ko’y si Angelina.
Masaya at mapalad aming pamilya,
Dahil ang kuwento nami’y nabuo sa pag-ibig, pananampalataya, at pag-asa.
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***Ito ay opisyal na lahok sa Saranggola Blog Awards 8 para sa kategoryang Pagsulat ng Tula:
Pananampalataya, Pag-asa, Pag-ibig.

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I
(Magalang)
Isasaalang-alang
Turo ng mga magulang
Matatanda’y igalang

II
(Malikhain)
Mga bagay gagamitin
Sining ay bubuuin
Tunay na malikhain

III
(Mapagmahal)
Bansa man ay lisanin
Lumbay handang tiisin
Pamilya’y uunahin

IV
(Maka-Diyos)
Hirap ma’y haharapin
Lahat ay kakayanin
Sa Diyos mananalangin

V
(Matulungin)
Unos ma’y humagupit
Tulong ‘di pagkakait
Sa kapwang nagigipit

VI
(Malakas)
‘Di makikita bakas
Tunay tayong malakas
Haharapin ang bukas

VII
(Makabayan)
Kayumanggi ang kulay
Puso man maging buhay
Sa bayan inaalay

VIII
(Maipagmamalaki)
Mga ugaling namana
Kahit sa’n man mapunta
Hinahangaang t’wina

IX
(Masayahin)
Sa huli’y makikita
Ligaya sa mga mata
Ngiti na nakapinta

X
(Tatak Pinoy)
‘Lang tanong na paano
Gagawin kahit ano
Ganyan ang Pilipino.

***Ito ay opisyal na lahok sa Saranggola Blog Awards 7 para sa kategoryang Diona.

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On love and desolation

Endless thoughts and possibilities. Words so powerful yet conceiving. These are just few of the description I can entail regarding David Levithan’s The Realm of Possibility and Lang Leav’s Love and Misadventure. Two great books I can surely recommend for readers. These books have the power to express lasting effect to those who can read between the lines. Because every words written have some potent meaning of life readers need to unveil.

Following are my most favorite parts on the said books. Books, true to say, have the puissant  caress to engage readers to move and think outside the box. Just like in these books’ case. 🙂

 


 THE DAY

loss takes as much as love does, sometimes more
miserable, misguided, misled
missing her is not an option right now
missing her seems to be a given
notice how fickle feelings can be
the answer is to just let go
the betrayal is to the past
the cocoon dangles empty
the desire outlasts the object
the effort lingers
the frustration is in how pointless the effort was
the ghost does not make itself transparent
the heart knows nothing except its own mind
the ideas are not enough
the jealousy is always there
the killing blow is sometimes the softest
the life you lead can be detoured
the moment you know cannot be taken back
the new you will try to bury the old me
the opportunity has passed
the past is inopportune
the questions all grow from why
the reality will always be contended
the sadness will ebb
the trouble is the time it might take
the ugly words cannot be erased, only discredited
the versions are never the same
the wonder is that we make it through
the x is the unknown variable
the yesterday cannot be repeated
the zenith is the point when you look down and realize you’re no longer below
you know, he says, you’ll get through this
you live each day one at a time
you live everyday all at once
you live with the possibility of good-bye
you move on

you ponder in this darkness and see you’re not alone
you realize you never felt alone
you subtracted one from your life, that’s all

~David Levithan (The Realm of Possibility)

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SAD SONGS

“Once there was a boy who couldn’t speak but owned a music box that held every song in all the world. one day he met a girl who had never heard a single melody in her entire life and so he played her his favorite song. he watched while her face lit up with wonder as the music filled the sky and the poetry of lyrics moved her in a way she had never felt before.

he would play his songs for her day after day and she would sit by him quietly – never seeming to mind that he could only speak to her through song. she everything he played for her, but of them all – she loved the sad songs best. so he began to play them more and more until eventually, sad songs were all she would hear.

one day, he noticed it been a very long time since her last smile. when he asked her why, she took both of his hands and kissed them warmly. she thanked him for his gift of music and poetry but above all else – for showing her sadness because she had known neither of these things before him. but it was now time for her to go away – to find someone who could show her what happiness was.” ~Lang Leav (Love and Misadventure)

 

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